am so excited for today as it is now August the 3rd and we are all at the pack doctor to see the ultrasound for Jade, to see if they were having a bo they have a boy first, as I enjoyed having both an older and a younger brother and I wanted that for their babies as well I see how happy they both are at getting to see the
a boy or a girl. I was hoping baby for the first time, and I am excited for them both
The gel pels put on her stomach and the tech starts moving it around. We all see a face on the screen and this image is so clear, we can see she is carrying a mini version of Asher already and my mom is so excited that she started to cry along with Jade who was blissfully happy to see her pup. Asher could not be more proud or excited to be seeing his son on the monitor Dixon and I looked at each other and smiled, I am so excited that I will be getting a nephew I want to go shopping now to help them decide on how to droprate the baby’s room.
Asher had started a house being built a week after they were married. They spent a lot of time on the design and making it theirs. It will be their home and numerous security features had been added to it, to keep the Alpha family safe. He had 5 bedrooms built into it, and when Jade found out how big it was going to be he acted like it was for us to come out there with them, but we all knew he wanted at least 3 children with Jucks, and mom was completely on board. She knew one day both Dixon and 1 would also give her pups, and she was so happy that she would soon have her hands on her first grand pup, that she could not stop smiling about it.
We all head back to the packhouse, as the final changes will soon be applied to their home Mom and Jack were going to be going into town with Dixon and dad to let Jade decide on the paint colors for each room and now that we knew it was a boy she could also go and pick out some decorations for his room as well, and get the crib and stuff picked out I was excited as since Jade and Asher were taking his car I can go too, as dad and Dixon would be there to keep me safe as well. I was so excited about getting to get out of our packlands that I was bouncing with excitement. I had been cooped up here for two months now and I was ready to get out
I will make sure I get to go shopping a little too while we are out, I needed some new workout gear andnew clothes. I have been taking my training a lot more seriously last month and I was leaner and more toned than I have ever been. My walist in smaller by over an inch and my squats with weights have resulted in my ass looking the best that it ever has. I am even more confident in my abilities as Asher and dad were 100% on board with me getting in some extra training with Boston Brazion took it seriously as we had just gone over some crazy events in March when Jade was almost taken three times, by the same guys, while we were on spring break. It was scary for us all and let us know that we needed to take all our training even more seriously
am already ready in the lobby when my pamets came down since Dixon brings the car around I waited to see where dad was going to sit, as he could sit in the back with mom, or upfront with Dixon, he got into the backseat with mom and they held hands and spoke quietly all the way to the paint store, Jade let mom help her with some of her choices, but for their bedroom, she picked a light teal color that really looked relaxing and would make their room feel spa–like and comforting Jade made carefull choices on her other paint colors in the main rooms. But just white for the children’s rooms as she knew as they had children that the older kids would be moving to a bedroom a little further away from them, as they got older. She would let them pick their colors as they got their forever rooms.
We went out to eat lunch, and I was simply happy to be out again, it has been hard to just stay home and twiddle my thumbs, but I was safe, and that gave my family and mends comfort. I was enjoying my buting today as the only way I have fun these days is when my sss orders come in I was buying books, for both my collection, and for my ***** too, and was learning new hobbies as well. But looked forward to the day that Nico would be forced to accept my rejection. The pain I feel daily making me hate him, and that bh, Shelby She knew and she is the one holding all the cards, so I already knew what her plans were. She knew she was causing unbelievable pain, but she continued to sleep with my mate. I would like to kill them both now, as he made choices, and my pain and suffering obviously didn’t factor into what he found important to him. I have gone into heat twice now because I have found my mate. He doesn’t care about how much that hurts me or what I have to go through because of
I now feel very depressed, I have value, and I can’t move on because of stupid choices that he made, and him being too greedy to let me go. I am more than just a baby–making machine, I am someone who loves and cares for her family and friends and would do anything for them. It hurts, even more, to make that i still want him, want to feel him next to me, but he values her over me. The fact that he just wants me as a means to an end, is hurtful, and I feel tears spring up in my eyes. He should have chosen me. I am his mate.
I feel an arm come around me, and pull me in for a hug, and Jade smiles at me. She knows what I am going through. She knows the pain that I have been dealing with for the last two months, as she experienced it, she knew how to help me through the heats that I have been going through. She has battled the pain before as well, and the always tries to help me as I deal with them, she is furious with Nico too over this. He had made his choice, and him refusing to let me go, he shows me that he cares nothing for me, or he would release me from the bond and the pain that comes with it. I wouldn’t wish it on an enemy, and I look forward to when I will be past it. I had already spoken to the werewolf counsel about what had actually happened, as since Shelby wasn’t noted as being the Luna, since she can’t be marked Nico was claiming that I was his mate, and he wanted me at his pack I told them what had actually happened, but every time the council drops by, she is not there for them to verify that he has the human acting as his Luna. I guess he has the whole pack lying for him, as no one has admitted that Shelby is Nico’s Luna there at Golden Summit.
If my father, and Asher weren’t so well respected as Alpha’s I know that the council would have already dismissed this complaint and moved on. I don’t want them to be thicking that I am just a spoiled or immature girl, who just didn’t want her mate. He gave my position as Luna to someone else and just wants me as a broodmare now, and I refuse to do that I won’t be his dirty little secret, and I don’t trust Shelby at all I can tell she really has a deep interest in Nico, and i can only assume it is his prowess in bed, which is keeping her fighting so hard for him. I don’t know it for a fact, but that is usually the primary reason for a human to become so infatuated with one of our kind. Our men are usually will endowed, and physically nice specimens, as most have a 6 or 8 pack from regular training I could care less about that, as the pain I have been suffering makes me disgusted by them both.
I wanted him because he was my mate, not to take her boyfriend away for her. Shelby acts like I planned this, but I had no idea that he was my mate, or I swear to the Goddess that after the wedding was done, I would have locked myself in my room and never met him at all. He can act like he loves me deeply all he wants, but no mate that her loved their mate would put them through this. To hurt me, should hurt him, but I guess since we are not marked, he doesn’t feel my pain, or how his choices are affecting me in my life. How it is taking my self esteem away from me because I am NOT wanted as an actual male, but as a way for them to have an heir for the pack
I manage to eat about half my meal, and I know that mom and Jade are the only ones who noticed me suddenly being upset. I don’t want to bring the whole table down with my sudden mood change, so I put a smile on and try to pretend that I am OK. I have had to do it before, and I will probably have to do it again too. This nightmare will have to be over soon, I need to continue to have faith in the werewolf council, as Nico can’t hide her for someone will have to eventually tell the truth to them about what
Nico is doing at Golden Summi
We make it to the mall next, and after I went around the baby store with Jade, Asher, and my parents for a while I decide that Duncan come with me, so I can shop. Mom and dad are good with it, and Dixon is a good sport, so we head over so I can grab a few things. Estop by a shoe store, and I see a cute new colorful pair that I would like to
Trip to the Mall
have, and I am in and out in five minutes. I know what I like, and get it and go, I don’t like to shop for long periods Dion holds my bop formes go into the time to get my workout gear and I am so focused on grabbing my stuff, that I don’t smell my mate until he is right on tap of me. I look up and he smiles at me in a sadway and the next thing I know it is blackness as I fall to the floor.
