Chapter 25
Bree’s POV
I woke up feeling warm and safe in Nico’s arms. I lay there for a while thinking and stayed still as I did feel good with his scent surrounding me. I try not to get mad at the situation and realized that this was probably our last day together here at the house.
as he would probably be leaving tomorrow morning. I will miss him so much. He tried to charm me into letting him mark me, but
I can’t take that chance. That was why I made the deal with him that if he would just take me home, and stay there with me. while his pack got taken care of by my brothers, his Beta Jaden, and his Gamma James, I would let him mark me.
I cannot take the risk of him abusing my trust again or Goddess forbid sleeping with Shelby again. He always has an excuse for why he hurts me, and I just cannot allow it anymore. There has to be a line, and I have to be strong and make him realize that i can’t just keep allowing him to hurt me and then go, “oops” The last time he did it was right after I told him how much it hurt me
for him to sleep with Shelby, and they sleep together every day. I know that she knows that it causes me pain, and that is why
she does it I am the only one who ends up being hurt and punished by it. I can’t keep allowing them this kind of power over me.
Nico needs to either choose me, and come with me to Stone Moon, or let me go. I still have that bad feeling in my gut, and I just can’t play along and act like I am OK with him going back there when I know that it will end badly. I know she is a human, and
can’t physically hurt him, but since dealing with her for over two months, I already know that she is a horrible person who will do absolutely anything to get what she wants, and she wants Nico. There is nothing that I would put past her at this point. She will not let me have him, and I can’t shake this feeling. I know he thinks I am being paranoid or his pride is just thinking that he will appear weak if he can’t control a mere human, but that is not it at all. I am completely scared that whatever she has planned for
him will result in me losing him forever, because she will not let him live if she can’t get him to comply with her wishes. Or him
losing me forever because I told him if he slept with her again, we will be done, forever. I can’t see anything else happening that
she can control, except those two things. He has failed me before, and I guess I have more faith in how manipulative she can be
than him being able to control her.
I feel Nico tighten his arms around me and I guess he can feel me getting upset. I am upset, upset that he doesn’t see the forest for the trees. That he doesn’t see this looming before us like a big billboard telling us both to be careful. I guess his pride is taking the lead on this. He wants to take care of his people, even though they will not be his people for long. He wants to deal with Shelby, but she wants him more than anything else in her life. This can’t end well for me, and I will speak with him again. I
will beg him if I have to, but I already know his mind is already made up.
Roan already let Nala know that Nico is going back to Golden Summit and that he had told him to not go back there either, Roan
can feel it too, just like Nala and I did, Nico is just too f*****g stubborn to admit that he really didn’t want to lose his pack like that. Well, I have a news flash for him, it won’t end like that, because if he screws me over again, I don’t care what I have to do. I
I
will make bloody sure none of his people go to any of my friends or my own pack. He can keep his stupid human Luna and his
people in his pack. I mean he allowed Shelby to pay to get to be Luna, he can go ahead and carry on with it. He was OK with it before, he can just keep on doing it, as that was his choice.
I sigh and a tear escapes and runs down my face, and I wonder if he will just let me go from the bond now. To just allow me to go back to my pack and be able to find my second chance mate. I am pretty sure that I am pregnant now, as I haven’t felt the heat come on to me today, and it is just the start of my third day of heat, and it is gone now. It usually runs for at least four days, or until you are pregnant, but I will not be mentioning that to Nico, he would never let me go then, and I would probably end up at Golden Summit with Shelby to live out my days. I cry harder at that realization, he is just being greedy, and he needs to let me go. He should have done it from the first time we met, and I again wish that I had just gone upstairs to my room after the wedding. and never met him, and just waited for my second chance mate to come around
I really wish I had never met either of them. I barely hold back the sob from escaping but I can’t stop the fact that I am full–blown crying now, and I know that Nico is awake now and that he knows that I am upset. He is kissing my hair, kissing my marking spot, then giving it a quick suck to give me comfort, and it felt great, but that doesn’t stop me from crying. It causes me to cry harder as I already feel I have lost him and him doing that just hurts me even more.
Goddess, why can’t he see what he is doing to me? Why can’t he have claimed me like he was supposed to the first time he found me? Just left Shelby, took me, and marked me right then. Why can’t he care enough about me to want to be with me and our baby?
Nico slides me onto my back and looks at me, searching my face, and trying to figure out why I am so upset. I am quite sure it is
from my heart breaking and my hormones now being out of whack, even in this early stage
He kissed my lips, and then sniffed my neck, and said, “I love you, Sabrina, it will be OK. I will be back soon, I haven’t even left yet. You shouldn’t be so upset.”
“I know you haven’t left yet, but when you do leave, it will be forever, Nico I can feel it, and it is breaking my heart. The fact that you won’t even listen to me and just let your Beta and Gamma handle it is the most hurtful part. You could choose to take me home and let them handle it, with my brothers, but you insist on doing it yourself, knowing full well that you are ALL that matters to her. She wants you and will do anything to have you, and still, you insist on going back. Do I matter so little to you that you would do this to me?” I asked him, looking him directly in the face, with tears going down the sides of my face onto my pillow.
“Baby I promise you, it would be two days, three days tops, and we will be together. You have nothing to worry about. I had to think about you to finish having s*x with her the last time. I have no interest in her, at all. So, you have no reason to worry baby. It is you that I want, and who I want to be with. She cannot take me, because I am yours, not hers” Nico tells me and I see he is being honest, that he is being truthful with what he says, but it doesn’t take the feeling in my gut away.
I take Nico’s face in my hands and looked him in the eye and said, “I hear what you are saying, and I know that you believe what you are saying is the truth, but I cannot stop the way I am feeling. I feel it, Nala feels it and Roan even feels it. You said that you wished that you had listened to him before, please listen to him now. Take me home to Stone Moon, let my brothers take care of your pack with Jaden and James, and stay with me. I am begging you, as your mate, to please stay with me, and let them handle this. Please, Nico, I have not asked for anything from you before, but I am asking this of you now. Please take me home, and stay with me, until this is over with” I asked him.
Nico smiles gently at me and said, “I appreciate you worrying over me. I will keep you updated every day. I will call you on the phone in your room, and I will be able to see you while I talk to you. Gamma James will be with me. Nothing will happen, and I need Jaden to be here for you for your safety. You are the most important person to me, and I just want you to be safe and protected. I don’t care what happens to me, as long as you are safe” Nico kisses me on the top of my head and hugs me to him,
I continue to cry as with this conversation I know we are through, and I refuse to mention the baby to him, as he would die before letting me go then. He doesn’t know me well enough for him to know that I don’t beg, but I did for him, for US. He never made the choice to get to know me. He obviously doesn’t care that I am dying inside because he is breaking my heart. I can only pray that the Goddess allows him to break our bond by accepting my rejection soon, I don’t want my baby hurt when he does do it again. I will need to get to the pack doctor and ask what time would be a good time to have him accept it because our baby doesn’t deserve to lose its life because their dad made bad choices.
I guess if I need to, I can wait until after whatever happens, happens. I know Jaden will take care of me, and he can go and see if Nico needs help if he needs to. I will let Jaden know that I am pregnant if I need to, but I don’t want him to tell Nico, as I don’t want him to just be with me because I am pregnant with his pup. I wanted Nico to want to be with me because we are mates and because he loves me. I love him, but I guess that isn’t enough for Nico. I briefly think maybe I should let him mark me, so he can feel what I am feeling, but I shoot that down as a mistake as we would be bound together forever if I did allow him to do that, and I already know that the Goddess was trying to warn me already. I have given up, although I wanted my mate. I guess my mate didn’t want me enough to listen to reason. I continue to cry, getting madder and madder as I do, because Nico has literally broken my heart because his pride was too great to admit that he couldn’t control what was about to happen.
