Now, the wall in my heart should have
crumbled, but I still felt very suffocated.
I pushed Ray away, “But the current Izzy isn’t
the Izzy from back then.”
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“You should go now.”
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Ray didn’t leave, he just followed me closely.
I was getting impatient. “You’re stopping me from finding a boyfriend.”
I just wanted Ray out of my hair. I didn’t care about finding a boyfriend.
But Ray still followed me. “Izzy, would it be bad if he and I both serve you?”
My face was red. “Do you still have those abs?
You are going to beat him with your thick
skin?”
Ray pulled up his shirt, grabbed my hand and
slid it up and down his abs. “Do I? Touch
more.”
I wanted to pull my hand back but he wouldn’t
let me. He even pulled my hand lower,
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He smiled. “I’ve been wanting to do this since
the first time we went swimming.”
- 26.
Ray’s shamelessness continued to increase.
He was always by my side every day. He took
me to many random places.
All of them had something to do with faith.
“When did you start believing all this?”
“You believe in so many things.”
He chuckled, “Yeah, I hope they’ll all protect
you.”
I was speechless.
Ray stuck with me for a year, and I caved in,
quickly got married to him.
Ray’s parents didn’t care at all.
Ray said, “They’ve always been like that. They
never paid any attention to me and my brother.
As long as they gave us money and food, they
were fine.”
I realized then that Ray’s parents didn’t get
along.
Ray’s dad had a mistress, and his mom had a
lover.
They were together in name only. They would
have divorced a long time ago, but they were
holding on for their company.
Thankfully… Ray had his brother.
- 27.
Later, Ray and I were happily together.
I laughed more, but I knew that my illness
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hadn’t gone away.
I secretly went to the hospital.
The doctor said that it was severe depression,
and it had been for a while.
I had developed severe physical symptoms.
But I hid everything from Ray.
Until one night, I swallowed a large amount of
sleeping pills, then woke up to Ray with red
eyes, guarding my bed.
He touched my hand. “Izzy, don’t you dare die.”
My dad took a long drag of his cigarette.
“Breast cancer treatment costs like, fifteen,
twenty grand, your mom and I talked… We’re
not doing it.”
June looked at me, clenched her fists, and said,
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“Izzy, do you know that Ray’s brother died in his
senior year of high school?”
“Even if you are feeling pity for Ray, don’t you dare die, ok?”
“He never told me.” I whispered.
June looked away. “He was being considerate.
He didn’t want you to pity him. He wanted to heal you. Who will heal him? He’s always so stupid.”
June was in love with Ray.
I looked at her. “You’ll heal him, right?”
June’s face tightened. “If I could, I wouldn’t
have waited for eight years. He only sees me as
a sister in law.
“Izzy, he only wants you.”
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- 28.
After hearing June’s words, I tried my best to
get treatment.
The progress wasn’t obvious.
Ray knew, but he didn’t say anything.
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Late at night, Ray made sure I was asleep,
kissed my forehead, and said, “Izzy, if it’s too
hard, just leave. I’ll come with you.”
I closed my eyes.
Ray held me and patted me on the back.
That night, Ray and I seemed to have come to
the same conclusion.
If we were really suffering, we could just die
together.
When everything was ready, I suddenly threw up
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violently.
When I went to the hospital, the report showed that I was pregnant. I was already four weeks
along.
I was stunned, and so was Ray.
The wall in my heart suddenly crumbled.
I laughed with Ray. We walked home hand in hand under the sunset.
Ray rubbed my belly excitedly, “Want to go fishing, Izzy?”
I felt like I could see my dad smiling and my mom listening quietly.
I nodded softly, “Yeah, I want to eat fish.”
(The End)
