Chapter 111
Ayla
When Thane had Monica take me outside his office, I thought I was iven an opportunity to climb out of my spiral for a little bit, but standing outside of the office door and hearing Kian makes me want to be sick all over again. I didn’t have to stay long, but now I am back in my rooms confused and wallowing in self–pity all over again. A tug at my chest lets me know that Thane is close and that puts a smile on my face. “I decided to come through my room fist little wolf, and I must say, I think we may need to remodel.” 1 smile and laugh a little replaying Della folding up like a pretzel hiding the wall. She had it coming. “Ahhh there is that smile I like to see.” I can’t help but think the same thing in my head when he flashes me his dimples. He comes around and sits down on the couch next to me, pushing up dress shirt sleeves and putting his arm over the back of the couch. “What are you upset about little wolf?” “How did you know I was upset?” “Shifter smelling remember spill. What has you so upset that you are sick over it? Is it Kian? He won’t be a problemt anymore.” “Did you tell hini you are my fated mate?” I ask quickly, eager to hear what transpired. “I did. He apologizes. I don’t want to talk about it or even think about right now little wolf. He won’t be a problem again. Now, what is wrong?” I linger, trying to figure out how to get this word vomit out without being sick myself.
“I had a long talk with my wolf today. She explained to me more about white wolves and what that means. She also stated that I would be a target for corrupt alphas looking for power or breeding me to steal my pups. She said you needed to step into your calling to keep me safe and that if you don’t, we won’t be. I got scared. The thought of all that made it more real, this bond. I am your fated mate, and you are the alpha. I can’t be a luna. Let alone over any lunas if that is even a thing. Look at me! I can’t lead anyone, some days I just want to hide in my bed and never leave. I get nightmares and panic attacks. I can’t do that in front of others. By the time I am done with my ramble, Thane has a relieved expression on his features and takes my hand, bringing my wrist up to his mouth and gently placing a kiss before placing it on his thigh and running his thumbs over my knuckles. It feels so calming.
“I had no idea you had a fear of being the luna. Although, I should, but the topic wasn’t on my radar. Sure, claiming you would make you the luna by right, but I wouldn’t ask you to assume a responsibility you weren’t ready for. This pack has gone six years without one. If you aren’t ready, you aren’t. If that is never, then it is never. I don’t doubt my ability to keep you safe, not to discredit your wolf, but the only thing I want you to agree to right now is being in public with me and me mating you. That is it. I don’t care about anything else. I want you to be mine. However, that looks. If you want me to relinquish my duties and leave with you, I will. It is only you.” His confession brings me to a pause. He can’t possibly mean that. This can’t be that easy. A perfect life?
“Thane, you can’t mean that.” He lifts my hand up and places a kiss on my knuckle. “I do.”
“You can’t leave your pack like that.” Another knuckle kiss. “I can.”
“You can’t leave Cyrus.” Another knuckle kiss. “I would.”
“You can’t give up your life for me.” Another knuckle kiss “You are my life.”
I stare into those deep green eyes while Thane intertwines our fingers and squeezes my palm in his, staring at our conjoined hand. “Do you want a mating ceremony Thane?” He looks up at me with contemplating his thoughts “Do you?” “I thought about it, and this pack has been so welcoming and what you are doing for the shifters you rescue is great, and I don’t want to deny them the ceremony and the fun together. At first, I thought I would be too scared to do it in public, but I think I want to follow your pack tradition.” I can feel the nerves rising and my heart rate picking up. This is a big admission for me. To go from wanting to run away from here to talking and turning into a freaking luna.
“I like the sound of that little wolf. Especially since pack tradition states that the potential luna can decide at the last minute to call for a run. One last test to see if her mate is worthy of her. A chase through the forest to see if he can find her. If you decided to do that we would shift, and you would get a head start. If I found you our wolves could claim each other on the spot or we could, then they could. Then you would come back to the ceremony, finish the rise and then celebrate.” Wow, for some reason that imagery made me squeeze my thighs together to get some friction on my newly throbbing need. I am sure Thane can scent my arousal. ….. nostrils flair and he gives me a smirk. Yep, definitely knows.
‘Or you could proceed with the mating ceremony without the run. Your call little wolf. I just have one request.” “What is that?” I ask him with my lust in my voice than I anticipated. “I ask that we do it this weekend.” What? “Thats in two days Thane.” I stammer out, choking on my spit. “Thats long enough to wait. This weekend. Say you will be mine.”
