Chapter 146
“I will show you my dimples.”
“Fine.”
“I will be down in a little bit to get you.”
I plan on taking little out. Another first and it gives me more time to judge this leaving conversation with her. I take out my phone and reserve a seat at a good restaurant and leave to pick up little wolf. Once she is in my arms, the world is right again and we head to the cabin getting ready then the world tilts on its axis when little wolf asks to go on the raid with us. “No. Absolutely not. I know a week to ten days is a long time apart, but the answer to that isn’t to put you in danger Ayla.” “It isn’t about the length of time away. I understand this is a big opportunity to take the ring down. It is what I can do. I can shield you Thane. I can’t just pretend I can’t do that knowing that you are putting yourself in danger. I couldn’t live without you and I can help prevent that.” “I couldn’t live without you either. This is a combat situation. I can’t concentrate if I think you are in danger. We haven’t tested your powers yet. We don’t know how long you can hold a shield.” “I held one when you were poisoned Thane.” “Yes, but that wasn’t in a high stress, triggering environment. What happens if you see someone and a memory comes back. Maybe it is the same shifter? You could panic or worse.” “Well, if I–recognize a shifter and I am with you then I can point him out and you can get–revenge for me.” “Fair point little wolf, but the answer remains no.” I haven’t needed to be firm with little wolf, outside of trying to get her to eat during her heat, but this is her safety. I can’t agree to it.
“I care about you and the safety of this pack. I also care about the girls that are there. Seeing a female with you would help.” “We have female fighters little wolf.” “None with my story, Thane.” “There won’t be time to tell your story Ayla.” “I could keep bullets away from you.” “We don’t even know if it is bullet proof Ayla and I am not going to find out.”
I hate how defeated she looks. I understand what she is saying, but it doesn’t mean that the idea of her going makes more sense than staying here in safety. We haven’t needed a shield before. That’s not to say that we haven’t lost any lives, but I am not planning on risking hers. In any capacity. Still, the look of rejection on her face guts me. I want so much to let her help with some part of it. To feel like she is getting stronger and to partake in destruction of the system that ruined her before me.
“I tell you what little wolf. Let me plan the raid with my team and think about your involvement.” she perks up straighter looking hopeful at me with those big, teal eyes. “Really? You mean that?” I wouldn’t lie to you little wolf. I will think about it. I don’t want to be without you that long, and I don’t want you in danger. I also understand your side. I will think about it.” I tell her honestly and she smiles huge at me. Damn the fates. I may have a get out of jail free card, but she can have whatever she wants from me. I would burn it all down for her.
