Chapter 34
Thane
I’m pacing my rooms now running my hands through my hair mulling over the text messages 1 passing between myself and little wolf. I took her first kiss from.her and she doesn’t care. If I hadn’t been so selfish and more self controlled, she would still have that experience. An experience she deserved to have by choice and more so more passionately. I can’t say I regret it. I feel guilty, but I definitely don’t regret it. It’s all I’m thinking about. I just I would have been proper with it. Taken my time, more thorough, exploratory. The thought causing me to get hard, which isn’t helping me think clearly. Knowing she’s next door, through a shared door nonetheless, sharing these text with me is making it very difficult not to run through the door and give her a better first kiss. I need to run. Get rid of this frustration, but I can’t pull myself away. The text about carrying the kiss forever gives me a deep gut scratch, but I don’t know why. Damn it, I
need to clear my head. With an exhaustive sigh, I decide to mind–link Cyrus. “Hey you around? I need to go for a run, clear my head.” “You would ask now, I was just getting ready to shave my bikini line.” “Meet me out back, dumbass.” I mind link back and head outside. “Alright, but no complaints when you see my bush. It’s been a few weeks.”
The nights crisp air feels good, it will be fall soon. I head out to the forest behind the pack house and strip down, placing my clothes next to a tree. My shift is fast, completely shifted before hitting the ground. I’ve yet to meet a shifter that can pull that off. Ronan is quick, standing to shake out is this, black coat. A few minutes later and Cyrus‘ gray wolf now walks up beside me. We take off running into the woods. The wind blowing through. our fur, the soft feel of dirt under our paws all senses heightened. We are tearing through the woods, running for a few hours. The moon is up, almost full.
“You want to tell me why your ass is all wound up tonight?” Cyrus mind–links while our wolves are resting in the moon light. “I screwed up today. An enjoyable screw up, but a screw up. “What, you killed the asshole in the dungeon? Sorry I missed it.” “No, that’s not it. He didn’t talk. Nice toeg
by the way. His, not yours.” “Thanks, I aim to please.” Cyrus chuckles through the link, but then he waits quietly, knowing I am serious. “I tried to let Ronan pull Ayla’s wolf out, but instead I kissed her. It was short, barely a second, but i backed away. She then proceeds to tell me it was her first kiss. I took that from her and she thanked me for it. I practically yell, frustration setting in again. “So you kissed her, she liked it and now you’re hanging out with me instead of seeing what she looks like naked?” What, do I need to give your the talk?” “Shut the hell up Cyrus. I screwed up. After everything thing she’s been through, I do
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this. It gives her something to be confused about, on top of all her trauma. Don’t even get me started on that. Alphas have been taking and taking from her. I don’t want to take.” “First off. you can’t compare yourself to them or what they did dipshit. She told you she liked it. She wouldn’t have told you anything if she was scared or confused. Secondly, she’s fine as hell. Perfection. Anyone spending time with her would be tempted.” Thatstatement earns him a snarl from Ronan. “THIRD, you two clearly have have a connection. You’ve been with her everyday. She trusts you. She doesn’t have to, but she does. You didn’t have to stick around after rescuing her. Anyone of us could’ve questioned her for you, but you wanted to. If you weren’t with her every day, patient with her, she would probably be huddled up in a corner somewhere, distraught and a risk to herself, but she’s not and that’s because of you.” “And what happens if I find my fated mate, my luna or she finds her mate? Then what? I don’t want to break her heart either.” “It’s already broken Thane. Like yours. Maybe you two help each other heal. If you find your mates, then you have a serious conversation but you would both be better versions of yourselves for your mates. OR, she finds her mate and you tear his throat out and claim her in his blood. Both are good options.”
I sigh and Ronan shakes our head, but he has some good points. “Take it day by day Thane. She’s spent years unable to plan for tomorrow anyway.” Werise up, deciding to head back to the pack house. It’s well after midnight by the time I get back to my room and get showered. I get ready for bed, exhausted from little sleep the past few weeks. I throw on some gray sweatpants and crawl into bed when I hear a faint groan. A few seconds later and I hear what sounds like kicking or thumping. Rising up out of bed I go to the door adjoing our rooms when I hear a faint whimper and fast breathing. I know I told Ayla her side was locked, but I didn’t tell her I have a master key. I quickly run over to my dresser, grabbing the key and gain entry to Aylas bedroom. Confusion sets in when I see an empty bed, with the bed covers on the ground. I hear another whimper when I kneel down to look under the bed, seeing little wolf in the throes of a nightmare. She’s whimpering and kicking her feet against the underneath side of the bed. Kicking quickly turns to thrashing.
“Little wolf, little wolf, ssshhh sshh it’s me. It’s Thane. Wake up Ayla. You’re safe. I need you to wake up.” I’ve got a hold of her shoulders, a gentle but firm grip. She’s no longer kicking, but still whimpering. “Little wolf wake up. It’s just a nightmare. You’re safe.” She slowly starts to blink her eyes open, breathing hard as she opens those beautiful teal eyes. Slight confusion takes over her face as she looks at me and then around to the underside of the bed. I can barely get half of my upper body under here, and now we’re pretzeled together. “It’s okay little wolf. Just a nightmare. He can’t get you anymore.” I reiterate to her and I watch her breathing start to slow. She grabs my wrist to the hand holding on to her shoulder and closes her eyes, taking in a large breath and letting it out slowly. She
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opens her eyes and for awhile, we just lay there, staring into each other’s eyes, waiting to see who is going to speak first.
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