Chapter 35
Avla
“Can I get you out from under here little wolf? Thane asked me, breaking our moment of silence. I just stared at him with gratitude in my heart. He just helped me recover from a horrific nightmare. He seems to always find me when I need him. His deep green eyes staring deep into my soul, waiting for an answer. I nod my head “yes” and he slowly backs out from under the bed, pulling me with him. “Have you been sleeping under here on purpose little wolf?” I nod my head “no.” It isn’t really my intention to end up under the bed, but I involuntarily go there apparently when I am deep within a nightmare. He slid his thick arms under my legs and 1 wrapped my arms around his neck. His breath was hot on my cheek and caused me to blush. I had a deep longing for him and started to squeeze my thighs together, hoping he didn’t sense it. Thane lowered me down to the bed and stared down at me, eyes darting back and forth, taking in all of my features, studying me, seemingly imprinting this moment into his memory. I know I was.
He cleared his throat and released me, but he sat beside me on the edge of the bed and
placed one hand on my thighs as I sat upright against the headboard. I suddenly felt embarrassed that I had woke him up and caused a scene. I started rubbing my hands together, my gaze staring at them like I was inspecting something important. “Ayla, don’t hide from me.” I looked up at him and he looked at me searching for something. What I don’t know. “Were you having a nightmare about the heat clinics again?” “I nodded yes, suddenly getting flashes of images from years of abuse. I am sure he could see the sadness and terror I felt written on my face. “I want to be there for you Ayla. When you need someone to remind you that you aren’t there anymore. I want to replace all of those horrible memories with new ones. You deserve that.” I looked at him with slight confusion. He has been there for me, I couldn’t have been here without him. He was my savior, in my eyes he could do anything. He leaned down and traced my jaw line with his fingers. I closed my eyes, leaning into his touch as he moved his hand up my cheek and into my hair. It felt so good to be touched in such a soft, gentle way. His warmth could soak into my bones and I would relish it forever.
“I am going to replace this nightmare with your proper first kiss little wolf, If you will let me?” I looked at him for a moment, my heart starting to race, which I am sure he could pick up on and then I nodded “yes.” That was all he needed before his lips were on mine. His hands threaded into my hair. His kiss was gentle, almost reserved, giving me the opportunity to pull away, but if I was getting my first real kiss, I was taking all of it. His
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mouth parted, and his tongue teased my lips. I gasped and he used the opportunity to entangle his tongue with mine. I wasn’t sure what I was doing, but he was leading and I was following. My nightmare no longer a thought. The kiss turned deep. I threaded my fingers through his soft, black hair. He grabbed the nape of my neck with one hand, the other cupping the side of my face. We kissed each other softly, patiently. I knew he was holding back, but I was grateful since I really had no idea what I was doing. Thane started placing my weight on my chest with his upper body, leaning into me. I could feel the strong, firm muscles of his chest against my breast. I was wearing only a night shirt and panties, and I am sure he could feel my nipples pebbling under him. My body having a strong reaction to his, one that I have never had before.
1 place my hands on his chest, slightly digging my nails into his hard muscles, I want more of him, but I also know that I shouldn’t. He starts to pull away, probably sensing my anxiety starting to flare, but I grab him again, forcing myself to work through this. I don’t want to be a slave to my fear. I want to let him drive out this nightmare. I want to feel something good. Thane places his hand on my hip, right above the panty line and I can feel his thumb sliding back and forth on my skin. Goosebumps flare across my skin while. a shiver races through me. A soft caress, but he doesn’t go for more, doesn’t push me pass my limits. His thumb slides more to the right with each joining of our lips, closer to wear I am soaking wet for him and I let out a soft moan, surprising myself and Thane. My arousal is heavy in the air. I am sure Thane can scent it.
Thane starts to pull back again, and places his forehead on mine. We are both breathing. hard, almost panting. His eyes are flashing gold and full of lust. “I hope that passes as a proper first kiss little wolf?” He pulls away from me, short of breath and I lay there in a pool of my own arousal, staring at this gorgeous alpha before me. I smile, and he does the Same. His dimples deep, his perfect smile, chiseled jaw, unruly midnight black hair, deep green eyes. All of it. I just lay there taking in all of him. I am in awe that this gorgeous alpha gave something to me, without taking, without hurting.
“We better call this kiss quits little wolf, before you have anymore firsts tonight that neither of us can come back from.” The thoughts of all the firsts I could start with Thane come into my mind. I am aroused, but also confused. Could I do firsts without a complete and total breakdown? I just did this one. Maybe I should give myself more credit. “I also heard your moan little wolf. I know there is a voice in there and I intend to hear it. When you are ready. When you let me. Until then, lay down. You’re safe here.” He pulls the covers up and over my shoulders and starts tucking me in. My eyes are growing heavy, but I don’t want to look away from him. Thane starts to rub my hip over the comforter. “Go to sleep little wolf. I will keep all the monsters away.” and with that I drift off knowing that
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in this moment, I feel safe.
