Chapter 41
Ayla
With the sun’s rays cascading through my window, I awaken groggy and confused. Last thing I remember was Thane giving me the first orgasm any alpha has ever given me. I was lost in its ecstasy and aftershocks. Now I am alone in my bed. Do I regret what happened with Thane? Yes. Because once he discovers what I truly ah, it could be all over for myself or for him. Do I regret the most pleasurable orgasm of my life with the most gorgeous, thought shifter yet? No. However, I can’t feel anything but disappointment waking alone. Part of me feels ashamed of the mere thought I had that he would stay and hold me.
Running my hands down my face and rubbing sleep out
I get up and pad my way to the bathroom for a quickly c
eyes, sling my legs over the side of my bed with a groan. Stretching, Why I don’t know. I have nowhere to go and nobody to see. I find myself contemplating my place here in this pack. One minute I am okay with staying, the next I am determined to leave. I believe the latter has a lot to do with Thane. Just thinking about what we did has my body heating up again.
Quickly dressing, I check my phone and of course there are no messages from him. What did I expect? Sappy words? Apologies? I have no idea. Sitting on the couch, close to death from boredom, I am jolted from my thoughts by a knock on the door. Peering through the peep hole I can see it is Monica with a tray of food. He can’t message me, but he can order food for me? I take a deep inhale and let her in. She is beautiful and graceful. Reminds me a lot of my younger sister. Oh, what I wouldn’t give to see her again
“Thane ordered you some breakfast this morning and I am just delivering it. Let me know if you need anything else.” Before she can leave, I grab her wrist and hold up my index finger. “You want me to wait?” I nod my head “yes” and head to the island to get my writing pad. Before I can talk myself out of my moment of courage, quickly scribble out my note and pass it over to her. “You want me to show you the kitchen?” I nod my head “yes.” Once upon a time I loved sneaking into the kitchens at our castle estate. Learning how to bake from the staff and Miss Mary’s famous double chocolate chunk cookies were the highlight of most of my days.
“Well, I am not sure I should do that. Alpha Thane didn’t say I couldn’t, but I may need his permission.” I shake my head “no” and quickly scribble another note. “He never said you couldn’t leave your rooms. Are you sure?” I nod my head “yes” and she lingers on me for a moment before agreeing. “Okay eat your breakfast and I will be back in an hour to give you a kitchen tour. I will be on break then anyway.” I smile and wave “bye” to her and quickly turn to devour my omelet and doughnuts. Doughnuts first, of course.
After breakfast, Monica is true to her word and arrives on the dot. We walk to the elevators and take them down to the mess hall and kitchen. I feel my pulse quickening and breathing increase knowing that for the first time, I am going to see other shifters. I am making this decision myself, but I would feel a lot safer if Thane was here. “It will be okay Ayla. Alpha Thane has made those that live here aware of your stay and why. Nobody will give you trouble or bother you. We are really a friendly pack. Several women have! passed down these halls, rescued like yourself. Plus, we all remember what Alpha Thane and his family went through with his sister. We have a special place in our heart for all the women brought here. Whether they stay or go. They are with us forever.”
