Chapter 59
Ayla
Rolling over and feeling for Thane in my bed first thing this morning only to find an empty side of the bed is disappointing. I am not sure what I thought would happen or how this separation would work. I guess I didn’t think at all. Getting out of bed has me wincing. Turns out coming close to death by orgasms can be painful vaguely remember water last night and by the feel of my hair, Thane must have bathed me. He is quite possibly the most thought alpha have ever encountered. I have no memory of my father being so affectionate with my mother. Glancing over at the clock, I find a note left behind.
Little Wolf-
I had to get up earlier than expected for alpha duties. I want to thank you for giving us the night. It is one that I will keep in my heart forever. Just know that as your alpha, I will do everything possible to ensure your safety if you choose to be pack. I want you to also know that no matter what you will remain with me. I am quite certain our connection may be difficult for us both to break, but necessary going forward. No matter how painful, you are the strongest shifter I know and can pull through anything. I will get a hold of you when I know more in regard to your mate situation. I can’t promise I will be in a good mood though. Just know it has nothing to do with you. I have placed Monica’s number in your phone. She said she took you to the mess hall and I think you two would make great friends. I am proud
for them little wolf. You deserve it. To live. of you for going. Think about what other things you are now strong enough to do and go
-Thane
If I could cry, I would be doing so. But, as I wait, no tears come. Last night was the best night of my life. However, this morning is one of the hardest I have had. No, it doesn’t compare to any of the horrific days I experienced when kidnapped, but a different kind of hard. Heartbreak, sadness hard. I really don’t have words to describe it. I gather myself emotionally and decide to shower and dress for the day. If I am going to meet my fated mate, I definitely don’t want to smell like alpha musk. I wouldn’t think Kian would attack his alpha, but shifters will do fight to death over the mates, especially if they feel threatened by another. I don’t need to meet my mate and get caught in a shifter fight. I also don’t need to meet my mate and have him murdered by Thane, although I could keep him that way. Until he found his mate. Then I would be alone and worthless. No, showering is a must.
I have butterflies in my stomach, and I feel like I could throw up at the same time from being so nervous at the prospect of meeting Kian. Staring at my clothes, trying to come up with the perfect outfit is enough to enrage me. I decide to settle on skinny jeans, knee high boots with a little heel, a black knit, off one shoulder sweater, and my long hair braided over my shoulder. I don’t want to give off the wrong impression and I only have rather plain clothing to choose from. Thane stated he would take me shopping, but now I think getting money and asking Monica may be the better idea. Although, I am not sure I can ask Thane for money, truthfully It may be time to think about employment. If I can think of the right job, one without too many encounters with alphas, I could possibly do it. I just don’t know what the “it” is yet. I put on some mascara and lip gloss and call it good.
