Chapter 60
My phone beeps and my heart Enks knowing that it is probably Thane, I rush to check it, not sure why because it won’t be anything my heart actually wants. The fact that I know what it wants, and I a capable of wanting it shows how much I have changed over these past few weeks. I pull open the message and begin biting my rails when I read that Kian has agreed to meet me in Thane’s office. Apparently, he is there getting the run down about me and my background. A thought disgusts me that someone else will know what happened to me, but if he is my mate he should know. Maybe I will be comfortable enough to go into details someday. I agree to the meeting. I really don’t want to, but I can’t come up with any good reasons why. It isn’t fair to him if he knows that I am here and refuse to meet him.
Around 30 minutes later, Cyrus is at my door to escort me to Thane office. He has a thin smile, doesn’t really meet his eyes. I can’t help that maybe he realizes how hard this is on me, or maybe he knows what Thane and I did last night. The thoughts of the night and what Thane can do with his mouth have me blushing, and Cyrus lets out a small laugh under his breath. Yeah, he definitely knows. Why wouldn’t he? They are best friends, and he is, his beta. For some reason the walk to the office from the elevator feels like I am walking to the electric chair. A slight sense of dread takes over me. I am sure it is nerves, but I can’t shake the feeling. I can’t quite put my finger on it and contribute it to seeing Thane post orgasms for the first time.
I walk into the room, the door already partly open, and see who I presume to be Kian sitting at Thane’s desk, his back facing the door. Thane isn’t looking up at Cyrus and I, no he is looking at Kian. Intently studying him and watching his movements. Or lack thereof Thane’s eyes dart, to me and he tries to smile, but it falls flat. I know he is thinking about this entire messed up situation we created. I know it also must be double hard for him to see me with a mate to hop on over to and start a life with, making it easier to get over him, and he doesn’t have that luxury. I could pray for him to find his mate, but I am too selfish to do that today. I don’t think my heart can handle it. Cyrus clears his throat, and Kian turns his head around towards us and smiles. He has a nice smile, No dimples still, but what can I do about it. He is handsome, but the love at first sight, fated mate bond snapping into place, the unicorns and rainbows isn’t there. I literally feel no different than before I walked into this office. My eyes dart back and forth between him and Thane, waiting for someone to take the initiative. The first step to end this awkwardness I am experiencing.
“Kian please stand and greet Ayla. Ayla, this is Kian. He claims that he recognized you as his fated mate and that is why he is here.* “I didn’t CLAIM, I know. My wolf recognized her scent. She is my fated mate.” Kian gruffs off sternly to Thane, causing Thane to dart his eyes back to him. “You will recognize me in this situation. I am still your alpha, whether you like what I am saying or not.” “Yes, alpha Thane, of course. Sorry, my wolf is just a little on edge at the moment.” “Your wolf is on edge in the presence of his mate? I am not sure that would be a normal fated mate bond reaction Kian.” “Look alpha, I don’t know why you would think I would lie about this. Ayla is my fated mate. My wolf recognizes her as his mate. I feel it.” he states while holding his hand over his chest. “Ayla, do you feel anything right now when you look at Kian, or when you entered my office?” Thane asks me and I answer by shaking my head “no” truthfully. Kian is handsome and I am sure he is nice or whatever, but I literally feel nothing. “She doesn’t feel anything because she is wolfless.” Kian states, causing me to bristle at his words and furrow my brows in anger. I am not wolfless, I just haven’t made me decision to connect with her, which sounds absurd, but when I think about it, but I have other safety variables to consider. One of them being my mate and whether or not he would accept us. Or if I would want him to. “How do you know she is without her wolf? I did not tell you that.” Thane asks him sternly. “I heard it when I was asking around about her, and I do not sense one within her. I didn’t mean any disrespect by it. I just think that could be the reason she isn’t feeling our bond.” “That is quite the theory you suddenly came to. One that we also had but wasn’t sure we were ready to share.”
